Racism is still alive and well. I hate when I get, ‘where are you from? Your hair texture…you must be mixed.’ I’m like no, I’m black. So that and just being confident in who you are. It’s okay, you’re black, you’re beautiful. There’s nothing wrong with that. So overcoming that and being firm and confident in who I am as a black woman was definitely something I had to work on.
I feel like as a woman you have to learn to love yourself first. Of course there are things I want to work on to better myself, like eating habits and things like that. But as far as loving myself and image wise, I think I’ve definitely grown into the person that I am. I love who I am and I think that that’s the first step. I’m this tall, my nose is like this, and this is what I was given. There’s nothing wrong with it. I’m beautiful, so that’s the first step. But of course it’s like, ‘oh, I want to whiten my teeth or I want to lose weight.’ Those are small things but loving yourself, that’s the first step. I just love myself.
So perfection is first understanding that there’s no such thing as perfect. Everyone makes mistakes, everyone is flawed. I think a lot of that has to do with the image that the industry has portrayed of what a beautiful woman is or the idea of what a model woman should look like. I think once we cut out the idea of perfection and what society says is perfect then people can start living their truth and be who they are.
Life Altering Moment
My big life change was moving to New York City. I’m from Maryland. I find that a lot of people who are from New York are like, why are you here, we need to get out of here, you should move out of New York City, but I moved to New York by faith. I came here to do makeup for a wedding and I stayed. When you have that feeling—I didn’t feel uncomfortable, I didn’t feel lonely, I didn’t have any family here. I felt like I was being obedient to God and I was where I was supposed to be. We all have good days and bad days and it’s so crowded, it’s expensive as hell, or whatever. When you know that you’re firm where you’re supposed to be, I feel like that’s the biggest lesson for me is to get up one day and just literally say I’m going to walk out on faith and move to New York City by myself. It could be a good outcome or I could be crying running back home. I’ve been here 3 years and adjusting to that, learning, and just jumping in, I have no regrets.
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